#and they smell like them. and it brings blorbo joy

[moinsbienquekaworu]

Thinking about. All of my blorbos in too big sweatshirts. Too big sweatpants. Rumpled and sleepy. Oh what a joyful image

[myrmyrtheorca]

🌅 (sunrise) - What does your oc look forward to every day? Do they have something to look forward to in the first place? What makes them wake up in the morning? Why do they want to be alive?

🍊(orange) - Is your oc more selfish or selfless? Are they willing to sacrifice themselves or their goals for others? Why are they this way?

🍁 (maple leaf) - What brings your character joy? Do they find happiness in the small things? Does it take a lot to cheer them up?

For Myr & Tristam , thank you for succumbing

I will always happily succumb oblige to you taking the time to ask me about the orcinus orca project blorbos ♪(´▽｀)���� ask game

(oh dear I'm so sorry this got super long, putting the read more jail up-)

🌅 (sunrise) - What does [Myr]/[Tristam] look forward to every day? Do they have something to look forward to in the first place? What makes them wake up in the morning? Why do they want to be alive?

[Myr] - Before Reborn came to effectively buy her off the hands of her family under order of the Ninth, Myr's only reason to go on was the hope that things somehow would change. That her condition as disowned would eventually be shaken, one way or another. After all, Tristam would have inherited the title of Ninth Nero Signore, something had to happen at that point, right?

Her dad once told her she was capable of wonderful things nobody in the Cavalieri could have ever even imagined to do. She held onto those words for years, believing that she would have managed one way or another. She had Lidija, Anemone, the plants and the birds. The taste of stolen honey from the pantry, the smell of the gourds growing in the greenhouses she wasn't supposed to visit. Each day, the world would give her a reason not to give up. And when it didn't, she'd remind herself that she's stronger than that, than anybody. She's the strongest of all.

Now that she's in Namimori, things are changing rapidly. Food doesn't have to be earned or stolen, people look for her and call her name. It's ethereal, and she wonders if she can let herself hang onto these new things. The plants and the birds don't change, they stay in their flowerbeds and nests. But what about people?

[Tristam] - well, he's destined for greatness. That's what he's been told since the day he was born. He has a duty, he must become the next Cavalieri boss and bring the family towards a new age of prosperity, like the Fifth Nero Signore did before him.

He's feared and admired, and every day he makes new steps towards a world where that's the same for his family. For far too long the Cavalieri have stayed in the comfortable shadows, while the Vongola, the Cavallone, and the Giglio Nero feasted under the light of the sun. Why should them act different? They have the right. They have the Pallid Flame, a power made to be revered.

Every day, he dreams to be seated among them, the old and decrepit bosses of the other families, shining among them like a gem in the mud.

🍊(orange) - Is [Myr]/[Tristam] more selfish or selfless? Are they willing to sacrifice themselves or their goals for others? Why are they this way?

[Myr] - Myr doesn't want to be selfish, but as someone who was denied everything she ever wanted, there's no way she has the self-control not to let that part surface.

However, she tries. She's seen Lidija, how many times she risked getting punished for helping her simply because she wanted to, how seriously she took the job of bringing her more food and providing her with everything she needed. She admires people like that.

But Myr is a taker. She wants to be selfless because it brings praise and builds connections, but she will always need something in return. She deserves it, right? After all she was forced to endure, she deserves everything else, right?

[Tristam] - Tristam likes to reciprocate the good deeds his subordinates do for him, but ultimately only to ensure their loyalty towards him. He'd never throw his life, his royal statement of existence, for someone who wasn't even strong enough to survive on their own. It's simply not his destiny.

🍁 (maple leaf) - What brings [Myr]/[Tristam] joy? Do they find happiness in the small things? Does it take a lot to cheer them up?

[Myr] - Myr would love to pass as the one who finds joy in the little things, but what really makes her happy is being seen, heard and praised. Attention is what truly makes her know she's doing the right thing, that she's going through the right path.

Wether this path is good or bad for her matters little, as long as someone is watching her taking it. Knowing she has a duty to follow through with or someone to not let down reminds her that somewhere at the end of it all there's acceptance.

[Tristam] - Tris's joy is himself, he needs very little else. Or, that's what he thinks. He finds it easier to think that whenever there's someone else in the room. Being so intimidating, very few can stand an informal conversation with him.

And he appreciates those few who can, so much so that sometimes... he wish they'd stay there. No need to be talking, that's exhausting after a while. Just being there. He can't put it to words - someone of his caliber shouldn't need anything or anyone other than himself to find joy. His existennce should suffice him, yearning doesn't suit him.

[us-the-voices-and-more-voices-2]

i think you’d find life to be much more enjoyable if you stopped consuming content that makes you write rants that have several paragraphs. maybe you should stop being on the internet actually and find some hobbies that bring you joy…..hope you have a nice life

I still don’t know why people think I don’t have irl friends, or something. that I go out and do stuff with. (Dude I’m actually super happy and have a strong support system of people I love. And I go out and do stuff more than twice a week lol. You guys assume I’m some basement dwelling freak who’s- I don’t even know.- I’m just a completely normal ass guy)

Like, yeah I spend like 4-5hrs online these days but like again it’s a much healthier balance than it used to be.

I’m 100% sure this is about the Hasanabi post, which honestly I was being quite kind with my remarks.

like I wrote 11,000 words worth of stories in just this month alone, a couple paragraphs on tumblr is not even half the in-depth critiques I have.

I just didn’t wanna spend time pulling up all the clips, and hateful vitriol that man spews.

yeah I say it. he’s not very cool headed or a civil man, he yells and screams at polite questions and well meaning people.

I may be snarky and mean spirited but the violent vitriol that man has spewed to people is just not okay and is against everything I stand for in this life.

I’m not “nice” but being kind to others is what matters to me, and if someone is pushing hateful rhetoric or just being an asshole I don’t think it’s wrong to call it out. Honestly I’d @ him on YouTube and ask many questions, which he’d probably yell at me for and call me horrible things and say I should die.

because that’s just how some people are, they’d rather people be hurt and dying than reform or be helped.

again, a kindness is not a niceness.

Many people before me have been nice and also extremely civil when asking well meaning questions and he blew up and said horrible horrible things about them.

and also I do think Hasan is the worst introduction to leftist ideals and theory.

like, fucking anyone else. Like I can pull up some amazing people who encapsulate everything that I want to see in the future, and so much more.

(Crippled-peeper on tumblr, spot-the-antisemitism on tumblr, aloeverawrites on tumblr, valcaira on tumblr, god so many more.)

but again I do not think it is mean nor unkind to have pointed this out to people.

Hasanabi has cultivated a community of ravenous people who at the smell of blood will swarm.

he is not a kind man, he’s actually an asshole, and people who keep saying otherwise have not been DEATH THREATENED by these types of people and fans and these types of leftists.

again this comes from experience and me learning the hard, hard way that people would rather defend someone who’d like to see people like me dead. Then help people towards a better future.

genuinely, again this is a long post wow look.

I’ve been so grossed out by the way Hasanabi talks to people and about people for YEARS now, it’s nice to see I’m not alone about it.

again, he’s not a good guy. He’s an asshole who platforms the wrong types of people and hurts the ones he says he wants to protect.

he uses his fans, the people he says he wants to protect and help, and the people around him. And for what? Vanity?

I’m no idiot, I’m not stupid.

I can read people and despite being autistic as fuck, I’m not fucking stupid.

it’s there in neon signage, and it’s so utterly performative.

again, why are you calling out me?

Who literally just said “he’s an asshole and has literally platformed terrorists”

which is the truth???

why is that so mean or unjust a thing to call out?

you’d do it too i hope.

but just, why do people come out of the woodwork to say “oh this guy who in 4K LITERALLY tells people to kill themselves, and voiced his support for TERRORISTS. Is just a little baby, he’s my blorbo, he’s not an asshole for that. you’re being mean and awful”

like, no. I’m not?

my god, how thin are people’s skin. If I have had to suffer through 100+ people over my lifetime telling me to off myself.

I should get a say in how that is an inhumane and cruel thing to do to people.

like, he’s a dick. He’s not kind, he’s an asshole and I do genuinely hope his twitch and YouTube get banned rightfully for spreading terrorism.

I regret nothing in this life, the people who I’ve helped and the people who I love and value deeply have given me more than enough to keep going.

and I will continue to fight with them and for them.

and yeah Hasanabi is the antithesis of my values, and he should get more shit and more flack for being genuinely just awful.

and I’m not afraid to say it, because I’m a tough motherfucker who’s been through hell already and there’s nothing left of me to feel fear anymore for bully’s and assholes.

they are all bark no bite, they are just sucky.

and honestly I love people and I don’t think Hasan is whatever.

he’s just a big ass asshole who needs to change his tune.

Actually show us he means to help and care for people, I hope he turns a new leaf and realises he’s been awful.